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Who are we to say what's normal?

Aren't we all incredibly different from one another?

Don't we all look different

act different

think different....

So then, what is normal?

I don't think that anyone really knows.

Perhaps no one is normal....

And that is what makes this world so great!

I've told one person here in our ward that my new baby has down syndrome. At church this past week (my first time going for the entire time in a couple of months) everyone was just being so super sweet. I didn't really think anything of it. Then after our Young Women class got over the girls were all fawning over little miss Kloey. One of them mentioned that she could see the down syndrome in her. She peaked my curiosity. So I asked who told them that she had Downs. I was informed that the rest of the presidency told them. Shocker. I didn't tell them. Then I find out that the second counselor found out from my visiting teaching partner... whom I've NEVER met! Now, it's not like we wanted to keep this a secret. Quite the opposite. However, I just don't feel like it is someone else's business to do the telling. You know? This is mine and Jordan's child and we'll tell people when and how we like. So when I was walking down the hall after church was over I was noticing the stares and the quick looks a lot more than before. They were in no way trying to be rude but they were being. I like when people just come up and start congratulating us on our beautiful child. Or even when people come up and ask how we're doing with the diagnosis and what not. Perhaps the worst things to hear are the still's and the though's. She's STILL a baby.... well of course, did you expect something else...a martian perhaps? She's so cute THOUGH... well why wouldn't she be??? I just have to keep reminding myself that it is the natural reaction and no one is trying to be hurtful or rude. I know that. But this is precisely the reason I wasn't telling anyone yet. I wasn't ready for the label. But alas, it is what it is.

DADDY KOURTNEY KLOEY MOMMY

I don't know if we'll be adding any more names to that list. I may change my mind in the future but right now I'm getting the feeling that more names may not be necessary. After Kourtney my body hurt pretty bad... but after Kloey it's pretty much screaming at me! Yeah I don't know if I'm up for it getting worse than this. But that's okay. I love my children and the size of my family. I always said that I wanted more than one and there ya' have it.

Boy do I love my kids! Seriously, I would not change anything about them. Not one thing! Kloey's early intervention therapist was over the other day going through all of the preliminary questions and what not. The very last question was "If there was one thing that you could change about your life what would it be?". I thought and thought for about 2 minutes. And then it hit me. My life is so crazy. Sometimes I don't shower, brush my teeth, cook a good meal, do my child's hair or even get them dressed for the day. It's not that I'm too lazy to do those things it's just that I have no time. Heck as we speak my dishes are sitting there screaming at me to un-dirty-fy them. And as I thought of all of this I realized that this is my life... not just mine but Jordan's too. It's OUR life with OUR children. Why would I change anything about that? If I changed something then it would be different... I don't want it to be different. I love it just the way it is. CRAZINESS AND ALL!