surgery and KOURTNEY

WHAT A MONTH WE'VE HAD!!!! March 3, we got up bright and early (3 am for me), just for me to shower with yucky iodine smelly stuffs, and head out for St. Louis!!! After a completely stupid guy stuck me twice to get my i.v. right... my doctor came in. ( I say stupid, b/c he stuck me THREE more times after I was put out, just for ONE i.v.!!!) Anyhoo, my doc came in and informed me that he thought it better that we operate through the front, not the back.... shorter recovery, only fusing C6 to C7, rather than C6 to T2, all that jazz. So, he talked to us for about 45 minutes about the differences and what to expect.... of course, there was the risk to my vocal chords (I haven't gotten my singing voice back yet, but it's on the mend) But he informed me that he had never damaged someone's vocal chords... so, we said "go for it!" ( this was all done while Jordan had his head between his knees, white as a ghost, after watching the iv get stuck into me twice)
So, it's been a long road from there. There's been physical pain, emotional pain, personal space invasion, irritation, agitation, frustration.... blah blah blah. I fear I've been somewhat of a witch...if you get my drift. I've cried for not being able to hold Kourtney EVER!!! I've cried because my husband couldn't hold me, to comfort me. I've cried because I'm watching other people clean my house, and do what I'm supposed to be doing.... my goodness, I really want this to be over! BUT... I can lift Kourtney a couple of times a day now, I still can't bend over much...at all. I am doing some house work, I can't stand for too long, but taking a shower no longer hurts.... I just can't wait to be out of this neck brace!!!!!!

KOURTNEY.... enough about me.... let's talk about my kid! She is soooo smart. I never thought that I'd have such a smart kid. I'm not kidding. She says a new word everyday. She certainly loved getting to know her Grandma Loretta! Those two were quite the pair! Since I've been "out of order" she has started to use sign language. she knows...

blanket, mommy, daddy, eat, more, ball, baby (her absolute favorite), go, stop, cereal, sleep (which normally brings tears), I know there's more... I just can't remember.

The thing that gets me, is that she actually UNDERSTANDS AND USES them!!! Rather than whining yesterday for her blanket, she did the sign for it! I was so proud (especially that I knew what she was asking for lol). Oh my goodness, and her favorite thing in the whole world is giving kisses. She will give anyone kisses. I have to stop her at the grocery store from puckering up to complete strangers. YIKES! But I love that she is so lovey! I love when she runs through the house saying, "Daddy, Daddy".... I love when she looks at me and says "baby" and does the coordinating sign... I love when she says, "Looky" and points to complete randomness... and I love that she still loves me, even though it would appear that I'm neglecting her! OH! AAANNNDDD..... SHE CAN OPEN DOORS!!! yeah... found that out when I was going to the bathroom, with a house full of people, and the door pops open and Kourtney (looking all sorts of triumphant) says, "HELLO!!!" NICE.

Jordan is working on a film this spring... a real film. He's so excited about it. He's already read the whole script, that's a big deal for Jordan. It's a long script. He's done more reading than me this month! lol. I'm excited for him to get this experience under his belt. He's so creative and he's constantly thinking of things to do with film. He's currently working on his own script, which is coming along rather nicely. I love that man. I feel very blessed to have him by my side, especially at this time, when most would just shrink away! anyhoo.... this is long enough :)